I feel like so much happened today, but yet the day flew
by. James and I both said we were not at all prepared for how this all
went down. We were cursing the adoption books we read - completely not
helpful on day 1 at least.
Sophie had a change of heart about 6 minutes after
my last post. Was crying and writhing around on the floor in protest to
getting her sister. So that frayed my nerves a bit, but we managed to
snap her out of it, and got to breakfast on time, and met the group also
ontime. A pretty big feat for us, in itself. But by the time we were
on the bus to go get her, we were all excited once again, and in a good
place emotionally. For most of the 6 families, it was our first
adoption, so the whole bus was a ball of nerves.
After waiting about 20 mins, they started bringing
the kids in. Cora is absolutely beautiful, that was my first thought.
And looked absolutely terrified, was my 2nd. She came to us, being
pushed by the nanny, but really wanted nothing to do with us. We tried
to hold back from swooping in on her, and really did contain ourselves
pretty well. It was chaos, as there were so many people in that small
room. We hung out on the floor with her, gave her a sucker (which she
liked), tried to play with some of the stuff we brought. She watched
cautiously, but was not going to engage with us, or even let a little
smile squeak out. She really was taking it ALL in. Watching the other
families and kids, seeing what stuff they had, but being completely
silent. It was stressful, cause we kept saying, should we try harder,
or just let it ride? Of course, comparing ourselves to all the other
families, and how all their children were reacting. Bad idea, of
course. But there was a huge spectrum of reactions from the kids, so
that made us feel better.
We had to do some paperwork, take a few official
photos, and then were able to leave after about an hour. Chunwu was
holding sophie and my hand, still looking like a scared deer in
headlights. I thought we were going to talk with the orphanage
director, who was there, or at least some of the nannies to get some
questions answered. But nope, none of that. We all just loaded up on
the bus, and headed back on the 20 min ride to the hotel.
Once back at the hotel, we all disbursed quickly,
and headed to our rooms. Cora was being so brave, but as soon as she
got to the room, and saw it was empty, and was just the 3 of us, the
tears started. Oh my gosh, my heart just broke, and I was trying SO
hard to keep it together. It almost worked. Sophie kept saying, "mom,
if she she's you cry, she's going to be scared!". She's five, but she
is such a little peanut, and she just looked so scared. We got her to
calm down after about 20 mins. Pulled out some games, tried singing
songs, i think tried more candy. You just feel so helpless that you
can't communicate with her! Oh, but then room service came, and brought
rice and steamed egg. And she said 2 words, that I made me think maybe
she had to go potty, and she did. So I think that helped too. She let
me feed her the rice and egg, and ate quite a bit. And by that time it
was almost 1pm, so we decided it was naptime.
James really gave her space today. When she was
upset, she really wanted nothing to do with any of us, but would
tolerate me. She's not scared of him per se, but likes to watch him from
a distance. We thought since she was having a hard time, we would let
her focus on getting to know me, and then hopefully she will warm up to
him more in the next few days.
After the nap, we hung out a bit, then decided to go
check out the pool. Sophie and james swam, and cora and I watched from
the side. I could tell she had not been around water much - she was
afraid to even put her feet in. It was loud and kind of overwhelming,
so probably not the best move. But we were feel like we just didn't
know what to do with ourselves in our room. We ran into another family
on our way back. Little Emily was in Cora's orphange, and they clearly
know each other. Emily didn't really react, but poor Cora just started
sobbing again when they walked away. We unfortunately were in the lobby
of the hotel, and caused QUITE a scene. The manager of the hotel even
came over and asked if we needed help. I said yes - can you please help
us speak to our daughter! But then I was getting upset, so we just
bee lined it back to our room, and decided we needed to stay put for the
rest of the day/night.
Oh wait - somewhere in the afternoon we grabbed a
bite to eat in the hotel restaurant. Cora had some fries, and few bites
of pizza, seemed to really like it. I don't think eating is going to
be a problem for us!
Once we were back in our room for the evening,
things really started to to improve. Cora discovered angry birds, which
started the "little smiles". She got a kick out of that, and sophie
was good about helping her with it. Then we started playing with all
sorts of other toys. She was having fun, and the smiles started coming a
little more freely. She whispered 2 words to me - i think one she was
saying "butterfly", and the other was talking about shoes for the dolly
we were playing with. Oh, she is really the sweetest thing, and I can
not wait to hear her talk more. She's got spunk in her eyes for sure - I
can't wait to see it come out.
James feels a little put out, and wants to interact
with her more, but he's really afraid of scaring her. I won't let him
hang back too long, though - I gotta have a break sometime, too! But he
just looks at her with his eyes welled up, and I know they will be pals
soon.
I gave her a bath, which was definitely a new thing
for her. And teeth brushing also seemed a first! But she was a trooper
for all of it. And hand washing is her favorite thing so far :) And
then it was off to bed in her most adorable jammies, with her big sister
and mom. She fell asleep within 10 mins. I'm praying, but not
expecting, that she sleeps through the night!
Tomorrow
is some paperwork in the morning, and then a free day. And then I
think Wed we will go to orphanage, though we are a little nervous about
her reaction to that, considering her sadness when she sees her one
friend here.
So overall, a total roller coaster of a day. And it
was hard on all 4 of us. But there were some fun moments, and some
smiles from everyone, so I call it a win. I know each day she will
become a little more comfortable, as will we with her. When I looked
over and saw her sleeping next to me tonight, all I could do was smile
and kiss her. I know He has put her in the right place.
Juleen, Becky, Carolyn and I are emailing back and forth thinking about you all! She is absolutely PRECIOUS!!! Love seeing your girls together! The pictures are so heartwarming! Stay strong and love that new family of yours . . . she is such a lucky little girl to have you and James and will adjust before you know it! You can't do wrong!
ReplyDeleteOhhh! I promise you, it will get better! Hang in there! You're daughter is delightful and once she gets over being scared, you'll see her personality come out. Her reaction is more 'typical' than Violet's -- and it will take some time. Tears are to be expected, but trust is developed over time. Here are some helpful Mandarin phrases for you...and I'll write them phonetically... or so that you can understand how they're pronounced. Here you go...
ReplyDeleteBoo Yeow Don Sheen -- This means, Don't worry.
Boo Yeow High Paw-- Don't be afraid.
Neow Neow -- This means, pee-pee (it helps to mimic the pee pee dance).
Whoa Eye Knee (Wo Ai Ni) -- I love you.
Whoa Sure Knee Duh Mama -- I am your mother.
Knee Sure Wah Duh Knee Are -- You are my daughter.
Sometimes a phrase here or there will just comfort her in a way that can't be explained.
As far as your husband is feeling -- my husband felt the same way -- but rest assured she'll come around, but probably not for months. So, prepare your hearts for having that take some time.
AND -- give yourselves some grace -- forgive each other daily (or minutely) -- because when you're jet lagged, sometimes we're a bit crankier than normal.
Praying for your family... for well.. everything.
~ Natasha
Davis Family,
ReplyDeleteCongratulations, it`s great to see Cora with you. We saw her less then two weeks ago and I will tell you her true personality will come out soon. Meghan took a few days and now she is non stop talking and playing. We know how hard it is but it will get better. We love reading your post, you will be home before you know it.
Your in our Thoughts and Prayers,
Ken and Maureen